Timely Devotional

I want to start off by saying I DID NOT WRITE THIS ha ha. This is from a devotional email that I received from Ed Young. It was very fitting for my current situation. I have been trying to decide if maybe I should go back to work. I was thinking maybe a daycare. That way I am not away from Noah. I have prayed about this but not very seriously. Well just read this devotion and I will talk more about it at the end.

Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near. James 5:7-8

Maybe it's just me. I'm pretty sure it's not, but maybe it is. I want things to go my way. Not some of the time. Not most of the time; all of the time.
I want to be in charge of my life. I want things to work out according to my plan, my agenda. And because of that, I can grow impatient with God's timing. I try to get him to follow my timeline.
But few things are as dangerous as, and nothing is more futile than, trying to control God.
God has a plan for each of our lives. And the Bible tells us that his plan is much better than our own. We may not understand it; we may not even agree with it. But when we are patient in following God's plan, as James tells us, we will come to a point of seeing that his timeline is perfect. And we'll realize that he wants the best for our lives.
Don't grow impatient with God. Instead, trust in his plan, have patience and discover how truly valuable the crop is that God has in store for you.

If I truly believe that it was God's will for me to stay at home with Noah then going back to work would be me being impatient. In my plan David would be in a management position that would allow me to stay home more comfortably (money wise that is). But that may not be God's plan. I really want to seek His will in this situation but I am growing impatient. I need to remember a few things. 1) Just because I haven't heard God doesn't mean that He isn't talking. 2) His answer may be No 3) His answer may be "In my time" Please join me in praying for this situation. Pray that I will continue to seek God's will, that He will answer and I will hear Him, and pray that I am patient in waiting to hear from Him.